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Tuesday, December 21, 2010

LB's first accident :(

My son ALMOST has this whole crawling thing down! At the moment he is really good at rolling all over the floor, and he is practically army crawling. I don't know how he does it, but before you even realize, he'll get his legs stuck underneath of the couch, or he will be halfway across the room and you have to go pick him up and move him back to the middle of the living room (which is tiny, and so I have to move him often.) Today he was playing near our dining table (which is in our living room because it's an all in one kind of room-we literally do all of our living in our living room!) and my husband's coat was hanging on the back of the chair. He went to grab the coat and pulled the chair down on top of him!!! I was so scared and as I was pulling the chair back up, I kept repeating "Oh my God!!!!"
My son has had a few bumps on his head from falling over in the past, but never had an accident like this before. It scared me half to death! I held him for like a half hour and just cuddled with him....my adrenaline was pumping for a good 20minutes! This was Bryan's first real accident and he came out without a single scratch or bump! Thank God! I definitely DO NOT want him to get any older, because I know, with more mobility means more accidents. I do not do well with accidents and with babies getting hurt! :( SO please God, keep looking out for my soon to be crawling baby boy!!!

Monday, December 20, 2010

My son's first cold

I feel so bad for my baby boy. He just turned 8 months on the 18th and two days later he has his first cold. He's kind of had the sniffles before but nothing like this. :( He gags on his mucus, sneezes and huge snot bubbles form, and he hates having snot on his face, so he will try to rub it off and it just spreads all over his face...even into his eyes! Not to mention he is teething right now so he is drooling like no other....so needless to say EVERYTHING is covered in wetness around here-Especially me because he likes to cuddle and rub up against me (probably rubbing his snot off on me) when he is sick. At least I'm getting some cuddles even though they're at the expense of getting sick.
I really hope that it's just a cold and doesn't turn into something worse. :( Poor boy, I can't imagine him having a sinus infection or bronchitis when he's not even a year old yet. Needless to say, he is being very clingy, and I must go tend to him now! :) Not sure how long it's gonna take to get over this, but I'll be extremely happy when he stops whining every time I sit him down! (and now that it's bed time and he can't breathe and wants his paci....nothing is making him happy....even being held by me isn't working! YIKES!) I have a feeling I'm in for a long night!

Sunday, December 19, 2010

THANK GOD!

I am thankful for GOD. I don't know what I would do without him. I want to just jot down some things I am thankful for.
First of all, I am thankful for LIFE! I am so glad that I get to live another day on this amazing planet.
I am thankful for my family. The family that I made with my husband and son. I am sometimes VERY ungrateful for my husband and it makes me sick to think of all the crap he has had to put up with. He is a very great man and I just down right do NOT deserve him. I love him very much and REALLY don't know what I would do without him. And more than anything in this entire world I love my son. I love waking up to his smiles and I love his goofy faces and loving hugs, kisses and cuddles. He is the greatest thing to EVER happen to me and I REALLY don't know what I did all 20 years of my life without him. Time to time he will stay with my mother and I just don't know what to do with myself because for the most part, I love occupying all of my time with caring for him.
I am thankful for the family I was born into. My mother is an amazing woman and I am so glad that she and I worked through our differences. It is hard to believe now, but she and I NEVER got along when I was younger. I am just so glad that God brought her back into my life. She is like a best friend to me and such a savior when I am stressed to the max with life. My sister is so funny, and can always put a smile on my face. She and I used to be really close and I can't wait for that to happen again. At this time in her life, she is not into babies very much, so we don't have much to talk about and whenever my son spits up (thanks to Acid Reflux, that happens VERY often) she gets grossed out and usually leaves the room. Today she was actually holding him when he projectiled and got spit up on her new shirt....I SERIOUSLY thought she was about to THROW my poor baby across the room. She flung him out as far away from her body as she could and his poor little legs were swinging and he looked all confused. Needless to say, she's not going to hold him again for a long while. But I love her and she has always been there for me. We were on and off again best friends, more on than off. I can't wait until she and I are older and are there for each other because I know we will be. :) My dad is a great provider for his family and I look up to him with admiration for all his hard work he has done to make the life for his family the best it could be. We haven't always seen eye to eye, but he and I respect each other now, and I FINALLY understand why he was always so hard on me.... because he just wanted the best for me, like I want for my son! And I definitely wasn't easy to put up with!
I am very thankful God has given me such good friends. One friend in particular is Kelsey Rose Heinz :) She is a blessing. She always has a listening ear and I never fear that she will repeat anything I say to her. I can tell her anything and she will not judge me for my opinions or for what I do. I love our honesty and openess in our friendship. She is the one friend in this life that I NEVER want to let slip away. Her friendship is really too good to be true and it's the friendship that most people yearn for but can never find. I am OH-SO-LUCKY to have a friend like Kelsey, and I really don't know what I would do without her....she makes me stay sane, and makes me feel like I'm not alone on this big planet! Thank you God for sharing such an amazing person, I'm sure you're super proud of her! :)
I am thankful for the opportunity to stay home and raise my son. This is one of the most important things in my life....making sure I am always here for my son and am able to watch him grow up. I am also thankful for the babysitting job I have, which gives me extra spending money that most stay at home mothers don't have. With that being said...
I am also thankful for Lia Sophia. It has REALLY been a great experience so far! I have completed my 5 shows in 5 weeks, so I got my $150 back in the mail yesterday! (the fee for the starter kit). I also just had 3 shows in one weekend and made $410, which I got paid for last Monday!!! It has made me a better person. I feel like I am becoming a more outgoing person and I am bringing in more money for my family which makes me feel good. I used to have a fear of talking to people over the phone, minus my mom, husband and best friend. I am now overcoming my fear of phone conversations and talking in front of a crowd! (not to mention having to entertain a crowd!) God has blessed me with a great opportunity and I can not wait to see what my future has in store with Lia Sophia!
I am thankful for my new computer as well. I don't know what I did to deserve it...as a matter of fact I don't think there is anything at all I did to deserve it, as I have not been a good wife lately. But I feel like I can run a complete business at home now with my new computer, and it makes me that much more motivated to work hard with Lia Sophia!!!
I am also thankful for the 40 day love dare. I don't know if anyone reads my previous posts, but I was working on the love dare on my husband. He did not know I was doing it and I got to about day 15 and ended up getting into a huge arguement and telling him I was trying REALLY hard to work on our relationship and was even practicing the love dare. So I momentarily stopped working on our marriage with the love dare because he told me that I wasn't even trying, that I was just following a book and that it wasn't from my heart. However, my husband and I did a lot of arguing and talking this weekend and after it all, we have decided to start the love dare together tomorrow morning. So back to day one, but I'm glad we're both in it together this time. I am SO glad he is going to try to work on our marriage....and I feel so bad for almost ruining it. I am extremely happy that God is in my life and I am confident that if we stay on his path, we WILL make our marriage and our family work. I love my life and family too much to let it all go without a BIG fight. Sometimes it's easier to talk about and think about giving up, but I've worked this hard and made it this far, I feel like we can make it through anything.
SO, these are just a few of the things that I thank the Lord for.... and I can't imagine my life without all of these blessings (except for maybe the computer, I am just thankful that it is in my life, when I didn't really deserve it, but I'm sure I could live without it! lol).

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Love Dare Day 7

Love dare day 7 is "on a sheet of paper, write out positive things about your spouse. At some point during the day, pick a positive attribute from the list and thank your spouse for having that characteristic."
I know that my husband MAY or MAY NOT choose to listen to me when I say something nice to him...so I decided that I would write a note for him and slip it in his wallet for him to find :) And I know he'll find it because tomorrow is pay day. So I am writing this tonight before I slip the letter into his wallet for tomorrow.
The letter I wrote him is simple and to the point
"Bryan, Thank you so very much for being a great husband.♥
I am very thankful that you are always here for me♥
That you never give up on me♥
that you are funny♥ and that you love your son (I love watching you two together! :) )
♥ I love you so much! ♥ Forever and ever!"
Bryan's not into giant mushy love letters....I used to write them...only to have them glanced at and thrown away. I figured a quick and to the point letter slipped into his wallet would mean a lot more than a love letter and more than me saying thank you for something he probably wont even listen to anyways! I will try to tell him tomorrow "thank you so much for being such a positive and motivating person in my life and for being here for me through thick and thin." Something like that anyways.... we'll see if he listens :)

Love Dare Day 6

Love Dare Day 6 is "Choose to react to tough situations in your marriage in loving ways instead of with irritation."
We didn't really argue today...however, I was a little pushy and lippy today when under stress. :( So pretty much I failed. I will need to work on this more tomorrow, and pretty much everyday, since this is a really good one to practice each and every day of our lives! I think it will make a big impact on how we relate in future arguments.

Love Dare Day 5

Love Dare day 5 is "Ask your spouse to tell you 3 things that cause him to be uncomfortable or irritated with you. You must do so without attacking them."
I asked Bryan to tell me things that irritated him...but we weren't in any argument, so this was hard to get him to do. He came up with little things such as "1. I don't flush the toilet. 2. I throw dirty clothes in my closet. 3. And I am a procrastinator." I can definitely handle these, but I really know there are more issues he has with me than not flushing pee and throwing clothes around. Even though I know there are more, I guess I will just work on improving these for now! :)

Friday, November 26, 2010

The Love Dare Day 4

Today was to "Contact your spouse sometime during the day and ask how he is doing and if there is anything you can do for them."
This was a little hard because he was home with me all day! However I did ask him a few times if there was anything I could do for him, and how he was doing. I am going to do it again tomorrow when he is at work.